A new day, a new drama......

I never really knew how needy and dependent my mother was going to be until after my father died. So now, more than before, I constantly carry the "caregiver guilt" with me 24/7. Whether I'm home or out running errands, I feel guilty that she's lonely! This is something that I'm having to learn to get used to, especially because I'm nothing like that. I can be a loner (in part, I think, because I grew up being an only child), I don't need to be entertained by someone else. I've even been thinking about getting a part time job, just to give me some sanity. Am I wrong for wanting this? I feel like I'm not supposed to want anything for myself, since I've taken on this task as caregiver. "Lord give me strength!"